Hi, it's me, Ronald from Watapana Wellness.

I'll cut to the chase.

I used to not give two turds about politics or religion. I revolted. I was angry, my God was i angry. But before that I was hurt. Hurt bad. And just like a fox or a wolf in a trap, they will violently lash out, bite and even scratch the one who is actually trying to save them. It's pure fear, it's pain, it's panick, it's choas. I get it. I've been a fucking wolf the majority of my lifetime.

Until I began to see such vile, evil, reprobaste behavior, I can not put it to other words than simply EVIL.

Weirdly yet luckily enough I find my way too aruba. Passed the phuck off!! I was doing GREAT, covid hit and then everything went to shit. Plan was colombia, but the lord had other plans for me.

Aaanyway, angry and pretty much godless and kicking everything, I found a certain calm, something I hadn't felt since, well.. since I left Aruba, a small child. I remember feeling uncomfortably calm i my own skin....

Weirdly yet luckily enough I find my way too aruba. Pissed the phuck off!!

I was doing GREAT, covid hit and then everything went to shit. Plan was colombia, but the Lord had other plans for me.

Aaanyway, angry and pretty much godless and kicking everything, I found a certain calm, something I hadn't felt since, well.. since I left Aruba, a small child. I remember feeling uncomfortably calm i my own skin....

By happenstance, a few months in later, I landed a job (thinking I could run my business and a restaurant...), through the owner I got to skydive.. ow and BTW.. know how some traumatized people resort to addiction, others cut themselves to "feel something", well my drugs of choice was adrenaline, and preferably with law involved. You know.. good old Adrenaline!

So I got to skydive and went because of how it looked in the movies.. one big rush, speed, wind GUSHING by.. I WAS READY! GO GO GO!!!

But let me tell you, it changed me intrinsically, but being the most profound experience I've ever got to experience.

So, we go up, 4 of us in the back and a pilot, a Zesna, awesome! What i didn't know was that we wouldn't simply go up and jump, nah ah ahhhhh.. we got a 45 min tour above Aruba, my home, my rock. And wow.. words wouldn't do justice.

But then we get the sign, sit tight, hold on, we're gonna open the latch!

Ow yeah.. I. Was. Ready.

I was expecting, as in the movies, a gush, blablabla. But, If you've ever driven through San Nicolas, down to the red ankor, WINDOWS OPENED, you'll have an idea of how nice and welcoming it actually felt.

I got to go first: YESSSSSSS, I thought.

So I make my marry little to the hatch and sat down, to NOT JUMP, but gently roll into the view.

I was a bit disappointed, but then I sat down, got to see, not through a window, not trough a screen... but got to see... feel... and i got experience a sneak peek of creation...

That alone ignited a flame of which I did not quite realize, I had lost. (Or, at least not "that much"..)

And then we rolled, and what i expected to be a gush of wind, deforming the face, was a gentle embrace. Ow and sidenot, I did NOT close my eyes for even a fraction of a sec. )

And that's when I the true beauty of creation... no mercy haha

Remember, I went in for adrenaline: WHOOOO. Instead, I broke down...

secretly i hope...

So this inner dam broke, the flame became a fire lit by creation once more. I had found him and got to see a glimpse of what the call the bigger plan.

Hear me out now.😌

The best way for me to explain is this: put your head down a paper, what do you? Dots! That's right, dots.

Lift your head. Now look again, you see complete stories, pictures, edited, designed a certain way.

But we don't see that. WE LIFE BETWEEN THE DOTS.

What felt for an eternity, I won't go into detail, but once you let love and gratitude flow in, you choose to live a life worthy of God's approval, regardless of my destination the day I clock out.. you change and you keep changing. Because his light and love become clearer, your thoughts become more beautiful. You want to start to create, to build, to inspire. So, me being me, I got hyper focused: I'm super asperger!😎🫡🤸🏽‍♂️ pew pew!🎈

So you search and research, watch and listen, and research more and more. That what we doesssss! And the more knowledge you gain, the calmer you become. The calmer you WANT to become. To build, to create, to inspire! A life worthy of God's approval.

And it's not easy, because not alone is faith, NOT RELIGION (!!!), faith is globally ostracized, certainly Christianity at this day and age. I know because I did so to, my freaking-angry-little-biotch-hurt-self, years on freaking end. It's super uncomfortable... At first.

I used to thrive fantastically in chaos. By being fantastic in destruction. Adrenaline. Like little cuts into my soul. I've got a depraved soul. But, ugly crying mid air, He and I made a covenant, i would do good either way. Steer away from temptation, build, create, and inspire others to find that light that warms hearts and souls. (Dont worry.. I'm still a warrior at heart, just not aimless I guess.. hmm this just hit me haha)

But, the more I.. I've let The Lord into my life, the lighter my feet became, my heart, my soul. I LOST the need for adrenaline. I wanted calm now. Peace. Stillness. (IYKYK)

And let me tell you: HE has shown me peace. Someone i pretty much revolted against for three thirds of my action packed life😅🚀

The world was becoming SO beautiful, throughout it all, and then Charlie Kirk got murdered, for respectfully debating his believes, live on TV, in front of his wide and kids.

After having had to see this filth happen to a man, who truly lived a life worthy of God's approval, being see shot to death...Evil, celebrating death of a family man: i have decided to speak out more about my believes, after having been let seen a glimpse of his creation (twice, but that's another story). Why declare? Because all i found and all I've seen is a love devoid of the lord has led to insane and violently behavior.

I'm sick of pretending. I'm tired of hearing, seeing, feeling people's every freaking thought and emotion.

It's pretty nice to be able to see yourself in the face. To truly be able to see yourself in your eyes... your beautifully, perfectly imperfect, scarred, charred and spat out self: full front and not be ashamed. Find his love, and light that flame. It's much nicer. You deserve calm. You do.

Clean house! Make amends. Repent Before Him and see your life change.

Shit will hit the fan on the regular, there's a war waging. What do you expect??

Trust in God and His plans, because, we live between the dots, sometimes even missing out on the beauty of creation , while it's all around us. There's beauty and connection in His Grand Design, even if we do not see the bigger picture. Be fearless.

Have NO fear, for there is a combination of three words and three word alone which is repeated 365 times in the Bible, and that is this: Do not be afraid.

I've never in my life felt this calm. Have faith. Work hard. In life and on yourselves. Create. And for God sake (tadum tshhh) Try Inspire to respect life even tho options differ, do good when ever, and create a world of beauty, FEARLESSLY.

With love,

Ronald from Watapana Wellness

God bless everyone!